I struggled. I confronted it. I fought with my feelings. Cried for half an hour, swollen pale face. I wish I could be you. I wish you could feel what I felt for just a day. Would you understand the frustrations I felt for the past months because of your actions?
Sometimes, I wish I could be like you, push everything back and go out freely like you. But I couldn't. I'm not you.
The stress I'm facing because I choose to remain forbearing in waiting for you to change has built up till I exploded.
I need to change my perspective. I need to stop crying for you. It's time to let go and let God.
"Sometimes you don't want to have a conversation with someone and it's not about being mean, it's about being human..That's the biggest thing that I struggle with, that sometimes people need something from me that I don't have to give and I pretend sometimes that I am okay when I'm not and it makes me feel like I'm going mad." - Jessie J
A trial without a cost is a tragedy. A trial with a cost is DESTINY.
Through this difficult trial, I will become STRONGER.
Thank you Bestie for sending your cute pictures to cheer me up!
"I say I'm not broken hearted, And I cry on my own."
#Nowplaying You Don't Really Know Me by Jessie J
Attended church service and the sermon by Pst K was spot on. I felt I was strengthened by the Word and I need to step up my level of discipline in increasing my time praying the Scriptures.
Praying the Scriptures is very powerful because it elevates us from depression, enlarges our vision, explains our situations, expands our vocabulation and expresses our emotion.
Dinner @ The Tea Party located in SMU campus was great. Fellowship with my cell group was comforting. I felt that the dinner was affordable and delicious.
Thank you for being there when I had a tough day.
Sent my younger members home by train and they sure know how to cheer their older sister happier. Ahaha!
Readers, I don't know what problems you are going through, but everyone has their own vulnerable day. Crying is a form of stress release. Please don't cry too much okay? Limit yourself to maximum half an hour. Then stop! Wash up your face and go eat your favourite food.
Just be strong because tomorrow is gonna be better than yesterday.
Psalm 34:18
New International Version (NIV)
" The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."
Psalm 34:18
Good News Translation (GNT)
"The Lord is near to those who are discouraged; He saves those who have lost all hope."
